i really want to watch the neverending story

i used to be so obsessed with that movie.

so today after dinner we all went out to the playground, right? and we played outside. we chased eachother around and we swung on the swings and we flew acorns and we laughed and it was so effing fun.

i dont understand... why cant things be fun like that anymore?

were always so serious.

it seems like the only time were actually not serious is when its nearly dark outside.
and when we dont care what people think.

its like... this sort of nostalgic thing.
i grew up w/some of those kids.
and we havent really changed, have we?
i mean, when you cut down to the center of it...
brookes still loud and obnoxious and crazy and somehow tolerable
and shelbys still younger and dramatic and proud
and ronnies still crazy and immature
and im still idealistic and come up with these kinds of things.


i wanted to stay outside for forever.
running around w/them and laughing.
but it got to cold, and it was time for choir anyways.
and so of course it wouldnt last forever.



nothing lasts forever.
i thought about that in human geography today.


in science last year, she told us that in a million years, the building we were standing in would be deteriated and covered in tons of dirt, and something else would be on top of it.


nothing lasts.

books dont last.
music doesnt last.
movies dont last.
machines dont last.

life doesnt last.

so why do we waste it?
why dont we just live it?